I don’t really know how to start this since I am a girl who’s not cheesy and showy when it comes to my love life. I really don’t want anyone to know my feelings even if it’s super obvious. But I have to say this. I love him. I love everything about him, His flaws, his past, his awkward laugh, his awful singing voice(Sorry baby!) and even his big tummy. HAHAHAHA. Enough with this. I love this boy whom I disliked because of his bad habits. I don’t know when, how and why I love him. I just did. I just woke up one morning and realized I am happy hearing his voice each morning and see him smile. I know all his flaws and even the things he’s capable of doing. I know he’s capable of breaking me. But I trust him not to. I tried to deny my feelings for him. Even avoid this. Still I can’t. He’s a Gemini indeed. I just stopped fighting and allowed myself of loving him and be happy. We’re both complicated people but want simple things and relationships. We are both kind of person who flirts around, not contented and always trying to find something better and new. We even believe that New is always better. But our search is over. We found each other. We found each other for a long time without realizing we are each other’s missing piece. He is Joshwin Adrian Duterte Garcia. He’s jolly, fun to be with and random person. Yes, he’s like me. HAHAHA. We understand the craziness of each other. We even support our very own weirdness. We are honest, straight forward. We talk like bestfriends, we act like children, we eat like monsters and we treat each other like buddies. He understands me. My mood swings, my slaps and even my freak out attitude. He just treats me how I want to be treated and love like I want to be loved. Summing all up, I’m in love. I am in love with him. I hope he won’t change a thing about himself. Because I love every piece of him. I love you,baby. And Thank you for loving me back. :* P.S Wag masyadong kiligin,baby.
My psychology teacher asks us to pick a representation of ourselves using a thing. There were so many things that came into my mind. A phone, Vintage necklace or a Tree but I ended up choosing a book, an open book really. A thick unfinished book. There are so many things similar to a book and my personality or even my whole life. First, There is saying that “Don’t judge to book by it’s cover.” And yes. It is applicable to me. My looks don’t define who I am. It is my personality that you have to discover to get to know me. Yes the cover is important but what is inside is the one that matters. You have to open the book and read what inside before you can say if it’s good or not. You have to take time to understand the words in it. Just like me, You need to get to know me better and take to be with me for you to understand the way I act and react on things. Some reader would find the book boring and some would enjoy reading it. The judgement depends upon the view of the readers. Some would like it and hate it.As well as me, Some people love me and some don’t. I believe that I can’t please everybody but you can try it by being good yet being true to yourself. The book will remain the same even though it was criticized or loved. Every page of the book represents my everyday life. Every day I am writing my own fortune and let God be my guide. The words in the book cannot be erased or edited as well as every word I say in reality. I can’t take it back that’s why I must be careful of every word that comes out in my mouth. The progress of the book is still on process and yet to be published.
I love what I’m feeling now. I feel extremely happy without experiencing extreme events. Just things make me happy. Like meeting a friend, lending something and being of service to other people. I make sincere laughs ant more genuine smiles. I don’t have any special someone right now but I feel everyone is special to me. Every single one of them, Yes. Even my enemies. Then give color to my day as well. They give some kind of flavors and balance to my life. I think the fact that I worry less now and I expect less these days. Maybe that’s why. Ever since I read Max Lucado’s book about God, it made me re think things that make me sad and find the good sides of bad events. Maybe God made me see myself more, understand things that I questioned and give importance to the people and things that makes me a better person and contribute to my happiness. I love this feeling. Thank you, Lord God. For making me feel this way. For giving the an ordinary yet invigorating life. For making me enjoy simple yet positive things. Love Love Love.
There’s no easy way to say your goodbyes especially to the one you love so much.Looking back, you’ll realize your mistakes,those stupid mistakes that you can’t change. You’ll feel the guilt because of those mistakes. You’ll find someone to blame but you’ll just end up blaming yourself. You’ll say to yourself these words: “You chose to broke that heart, you should deal with the consequences of the fruit of your stupidity. Smile and take pride”. Then you’ll start finding someone to lean on, someone who would catch you. But you’ll end up facing the days alone. Alone because you can’t take someone who you don’t truly love , Alone because you can’t hold on to someone when you shattered his heart into pieces. And Alone because you can’t be with someone who adores you for seeing the fake you. You can only move on when you decide to move on. And your first step is to admit your mistakes and forgive. Forgive yourself for walking away from the chance to be happy with someone you love. It’s the only way you can step forward and try to begin the next chapter of your life. Next chapter that doesn’t include the one you love. Accepting your lost will free you. And eventually will make you happy. Someday, you’ll thank yourself for doing that mistake because it made you who you are when you meet The One.
“I love everything about her, and I’m not a guy who says that lightly. I am a guy who has faked love his entire life. I thought love was just something idiots thought they felt, but this woman has a hold on my heart that I could not break if I wanted to. And there have been times that I wanted to. It has been overwhelming, and humbling. And even painful, at times. But I could not stop loving her any more than I could stop breathing. I am hopelessly, irretrievably, in love with her. More than she knows.”—Barney Stinson, How I Met Your Mother
I am not a fan of relationships but hearing this quote from a character in a comedy series(no ordinary comedy series) who had been broken and disappointed a number times, makes me believe that somehow, somewhere I will find the one for me, quoting Ted Mosby. I’d like someone who will not make me chose between my best friends or him *Victoria, someone who I can trust *Quinn and especially someone who is not dumb *Nick. I would prefer someone who understands me and love me when I think I don’t deserve it *Kevin or someone who I tell secrets to like Lily, someone who can be sweet like Marshall, someone who’s independent as Robin, someone as romantic as Ted and of course someone as Awesome as Barney. Hahaha. I guess I won’t find that guy in this kind of world but if I got lucky and I did,I am one hell of jackpot winner. Hey the one. No pressure. *wink!
Warning: The following recap contains major spoilers from Monday's season finale of How I Met Your Mother. Read on at your own risk!
On the bus this Monday morning,it just popped out in my head that when I make a mistake,I know it’s a mistake but I do it anyway. So to keep my promise that I’d make myself positive. I’ll start doing what I think is right and would make myself and the people around me happy.
Good communication is a key to a great relationship.I want to keep up with my father who is working abroad. A chat and a small conversation will do. I am happy that I will make my father happy. May God help me with my mission.